ever wanted to see how your life changing?
go through your camera rolls, you'll get amazed.
as I am.
Wednesday, 18 November 2015
ive watched this one korean drama on sbs, its just an ordinary drama that I guess the only person who stayed awake just to watch that drama, is me. Well, its worth it.
So, this story told me that never try to change yourself just for adapting yourself with the situation or the surrounding. You are actually not adapting but torturing your own true self. I have this one bestfriend, who is very rich which is her dad have a very good job with a high salary but she is a very good friend, more than i could've asked for. But, this one thing makes me realize that shes not the one,
the one I can be myself.
the one that I would never care about my appearance
the one that I could be stupid without minding my standarts
the one that I can act like I'm 5 years old while I must acted up like a lady
she is not the one.
Why? she is rich. and im not.
she is high standart while i will just go with plain
she get surrounded by millions of secret admires while im getting surround by guys that just think i am sporting to be friend with
she put her image as priority while what am i wearing is not embarassing then im good.
she puts expensive makeup on her face, while a bit lip balm and baby powder is enough for me.
she once, ops every single time condemn about my appearance, minding what brand of clothes should i wear, what good classy restaurant should i go, what brand bags should i bought.until one level,
i forgot where i belong, i forgot where am i standing. I'm floating in the air, the only things i mind is i have to be on the same level as her. i forced my parents everything just for the sake of me getting that standart to be on the same floor as her. to look as good as her. to be able smile proudly as her.
but, i was wrong, immature and completely stupid.
i lost myself at that time. why would i go through hardship just to be on the same level as her.
" you're not God to do anything you want, do what you're capable of"
if she is truly my friend, honest to be my friend. she should accepted me as the way i am. Friendship's rule goes along with relationship. Both of you cannot be perfect, but you must cherish the difference and appreciate each other.
if youre on the same page as me, ask your friend
"will she accept you if you cant afford expensive bags?"
"will she accept you if you cant afford to wear branded clothes?"
"will she accept you if you prefer mamak more than classy restaurant?"
i realized where i belong, where am i capable to be myself. & im glad i am.
So, this story told me that never try to change yourself just for adapting yourself with the situation or the surrounding. You are actually not adapting but torturing your own true self. I have this one bestfriend, who is very rich which is her dad have a very good job with a high salary but she is a very good friend, more than i could've asked for. But, this one thing makes me realize that shes not the one,
the one I can be myself.
the one that I would never care about my appearance
the one that I could be stupid without minding my standarts
the one that I can act like I'm 5 years old while I must acted up like a lady
she is not the one.
Why? she is rich. and im not.
she is high standart while i will just go with plain
she get surrounded by millions of secret admires while im getting surround by guys that just think i am sporting to be friend with
she put her image as priority while what am i wearing is not embarassing then im good.
she puts expensive makeup on her face, while a bit lip balm and baby powder is enough for me.
she once, ops every single time condemn about my appearance, minding what brand of clothes should i wear, what good classy restaurant should i go, what brand bags should i bought.until one level,
i forgot where i belong, i forgot where am i standing. I'm floating in the air, the only things i mind is i have to be on the same level as her. i forced my parents everything just for the sake of me getting that standart to be on the same floor as her. to look as good as her. to be able smile proudly as her.
but, i was wrong, immature and completely stupid.
i lost myself at that time. why would i go through hardship just to be on the same level as her.
" you're not God to do anything you want, do what you're capable of"
if she is truly my friend, honest to be my friend. she should accepted me as the way i am. Friendship's rule goes along with relationship. Both of you cannot be perfect, but you must cherish the difference and appreciate each other.
if youre on the same page as me, ask your friend
"will she accept you if you cant afford expensive bags?"
"will she accept you if you cant afford to wear branded clothes?"
"will she accept you if you prefer mamak more than classy restaurant?"
i realized where i belong, where am i capable to be myself. & im glad i am.
Sunday, 6 September 2015
Step Ahead
"Why you suka bercakap?"
"How you be so confident?"
"How you'd be able to talk infront of people without any problem?"
"You tak rasa malu ke?"
Honestly speaking, I dont have specific answers for that common questions, all I able to react was laughing & smiling as wide and loud as I can. But I will try come up with an answer.
"Why you suka bercakap?"
I think because this is the only way I can deliver my opinions & ideas towards people. I am the type of person that have this HUGE curiosity in my head, from the very small things to the big things. I curious about every single each of it. Logically, if you want to state your opinion about something, deliver a message to someone, you have to talk. you have to
"How you be so confident?"
I am not that confident as all of you thought of me, but I try to be one. If I have to fake it up, I will without hesitation. As time getting longer, space getting deeper, the confidential spirit has blend in my habit & attitude.
I just get my shit together & go speak up. Its not based on how high your confidence level is but how much you want to deliver something, if the things you want to talk was not that important, then you yourself wont have the urge to speak up which lead to confidence level.
Life is so short, I wouldnt waste my short life sitting behind people & just keep my opinion inside just because I am afraid & not confidence. Thats just plain wasteful action. Why you chose to not to while you can
"You control the confidence level, not the confidence level chose to be whether upper or lower"
"You tak rasa malu ke?"
Nope, if the things I talk is necessary & useful to people who listen, but if you talk about lousy and snobbish things then you supposed to feel ashamed, if you didnt, then something is wrong with yourself. Why would you feel shy, if you want to talk about things thats very good & useful. This is why I wonder what happened in our teens nowadays. They afraid to speak up about valuable things but arent ashamed for doing bad things in public. Either stupid or brainless prick.
I am eager and wanted to deliver something to someone, so I can avoid bad things happened to me will happened again to someone else. So if I dont speak, I wil lost the chance
Never depends to your confidence level, Allah created each of us fair & square enough, never label this person more confidence than you or that person less confidence than you. You & me both can speak confidently if both of us wanted to.
"Its how eager you want to do something"
New Journey Ahead
" Winning experience and having the moments together in putting up something great"
"Won myself a good friends"
"Thats far more better than having a golden medal. Memories last forever. Golden medals? Rot in dust through time forgotten by the time we know it"
A very wise word for a very supportive and open minded senior of mine, since I am going through a new phase in my life journey, people like him is really important to have beside me always. What I have learned in this short period of college life is
People who you think was good is actually a backstabber
People who you think was a backstabber is actually the one who offer hand when you need
People who you think is rude is actually very polite & soft spoken
People who you think is polite is actually rude
People who you think is snobbish is actually very clingy
People who you think very clingy is actually fake everything up.
I guess what mama's told me is right, never label someone before you know them very deep. But never trust someone so much eventho you think you are close enough.
Yes, experience matured us up but its different to me, totally a different case. I get scared & shaking to make a step forward from where Im standing.
Life indeed a hard journey, but do not easily fall behind. If you see me starting to break down please hold me tight & never let the hand go. I thought I was strong & bold enough to handle my own life, but I do need a help. A help from a friend.
I think its immature action if you want to give up life after get a backstabbed from a friend, you just met a wrong person to give you a lesson experience not you have failed a life. You are not failing but you are on your way to succeed. People who left for a reason, but God promised, you lose a person He will reward a million back.
"Just have faith & keep on believing"
If you feel like falling down onto the ground, keep on looking at the sky. Imagining you can fly, the problems will slowy get dissappear for a time being.
Keep on loving and get loved
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