ive watched this one korean drama on sbs, its just an ordinary drama that I guess the only person who stayed awake just to watch that drama, is me. Well, its worth it.

So, this story told me that never try to change yourself just for adapting yourself with the situation or the surrounding. You are actually not adapting but torturing your own true self. I have this one bestfriend, who is very rich which is her dad have a very good job with a high salary but she is a very  good friend, more than i could've asked for. But, this one thing makes me realize that shes not the one,
the one I can be myself.
the one that I would never care about my appearance
the one that I could be stupid without minding my standarts
the one that I can act like I'm 5 years old while I must acted up like a lady

she is not the one.

Why? she is rich. and im not.
she is high standart while i will just go with plain
she get surrounded by millions of secret admires while im getting surround by guys that just think i am sporting to be friend with
she put her image as priority while what am i wearing is not embarassing then im good.
she puts expensive makeup on her face, while a bit lip balm and baby powder is enough for me.

she once, ops every single time condemn about my appearance, minding what brand of clothes should i wear, what good classy restaurant should i go, what brand bags should i bought.until one level,

i forgot where i belong, i forgot where am i standing. I'm floating in the air, the only things i mind is i have to be on the same level as her. i forced my parents everything just for the sake of me getting that standart to be on the same floor as her. to look as good as her. to be able smile proudly as her.

but, i was wrong, immature and completely stupid.
i lost myself at that time. why would i go through hardship just to be on the same level as her.
" you're not God to do anything you want, do what you're capable of"
if she is truly my friend, honest to be my friend. she should accepted me as the way i am. Friendship's rule goes along with relationship. Both of you cannot be perfect, but you must cherish the difference and appreciate each other.

if youre on the same page as me, ask your friend
"will she accept you if you cant afford expensive bags?"
"will she accept you if you cant afford to wear branded clothes?"
"will she accept you if you prefer mamak more than classy restaurant?"

i realized where i belong, where am i capable to be myself. & im glad i am.